A simple thought

As I mentioned earlier, our family has taken a new direction in life. One in which I can say I was very fearful of heading into.
It has been 9 months since we left our former church. I questioned what God was doing with us and why He asked us to do what He did.
Needless, to say, I was mentally, emotionally and spiritually worn out. I actually lost my desire to serve.

When I came to Oakwood, our pastor did a very gracious thing by agreeing to just letting me sit and recooperate. I will say that the people of Oakwood have been my healing balm.(they probably have no idea of it either)

As a result of friends praying for me, people allowing me to recover, books crossing my path, ladies conventions, Bible studies, invitations to dinner, and many other things, I once again have a desire to serve. I really just noticed it happening in the last month. I am so glad God hasn't forgotten about me. 9 months ago, I truly thought He was done with me. I didn't have any idea what I would do. My whole life has been centered around ministry. Could it be that He would never use me? Was I that big of a failure to Him?
Boy, that devil can throw some vicious thoughts in one's mind.

I find myself in a position now that I have never been granted before. I can actually pray about what ministry God has for me and not just doing something because noone else will.

I'll let you know where God directs me. I just want to be used. Not for my glory, but for HIS!