As I mentioned earlier, our family has taken a new direction in life. One in which I can say I was very fearful of heading into.
It has been 9 months since we left our former church. I questioned what God was doing with us and why He asked us to do what He did.
Needless, to say, I was mentally, emotionally and spiritually worn out. I actually lost my desire to serve.
When I came to Oakwood, our pastor did a very gracious thing by agreeing to just letting me sit and recooperate. I will say that the people of Oakwood have been my healing balm.(they probably have no idea of it either)
As a result of friends praying for me, people allowing me to recover, books crossing my path, ladies conventions, Bible studies, invitations to dinner, and many other things, I once again have a desire to serve. I really just noticed it happening in the last month. I am so glad God hasn't forgotten about me. 9 months ago, I truly thought He was done with me. I didn't have any idea what I would do. My whole life has been centered around ministry. Could it be that He would never use me? Was I that big of a failure to Him?
Boy, that devil can throw some vicious thoughts in one's mind.
I find myself in a position now that I have never been granted before. I can actually pray about what ministry God has for me and not just doing something because noone else will.
I'll let you know where God directs me. I just want to be used. Not for my glory, but for HIS!
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Wow, we really need to talk. It's so cool to hear and see how God is working in the lives of others as He is also working in mine. God is moving in this city and I can't wait to see what He is going to produce through sold out followers of Him like yourself!
-Tabitha
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